help!

I need to write something!

u know what, im getting a lil' bit more emotional these days and i just do not know why!

okay..yeah,i have so many things lingering in my head..things are getting harder as u grow older..that is so true..sometimes,i feel like giving everything up but i can't..i hate this happening to me.. i really do..even small tiny winy little things can screw me up,just so very easily!..and i wipe a lot..u know,im kinda fragile in d inside..sighhh~..it's all mixed up..i mean, the emotions..it's silly and it's making me crazy!..arghhh!!

i have to admit,i hate being far away from him!..i may sound stupid but yes,im stupid for all i want is him to be by my side!..it's killing me..urgh..just,get back here!..im going through one of the hardest part of all and i know very well that with him being around will be a perfect cure that can partly heal the sickness im having..so love,i desperately need YOU rite here,NOW! :'(

well actually,im stuck..i really am STUCK!..

here's d thing..

i just dont know what path should i take..as u can see,im planning for my future..and planning for your future doesn't sound as easy as u might think..considering that i have my parents, especially my dad who is, well, so into my future,im having a bit difficult time in choosing what i should be doing for a living later..i would love being a lawyer..but..haihhh..here goes the hardest part..i would be more pleased to have a degree in political science..nuts?..kind of,i should say..but,as i said earlier,its my daddy..i hate letting him down..my mom as well,of course..but, i also hate giving away my silly nutty dream of studying politics..i just fall in love with politics d moment i open up d book written by ac kapur which was used as the text book for my pad120 course!..i dont know!

im not blaming my parents..i know dat they love me and that they dont want me to make the wrong choice..my future is always in my hands but i will never ignore them and not considering what they want from me..u know,reading law is not easy..i believe that i can catch up with any law subject but im not so sure that i can excel if i ever read law..getting an A for law is hard..susah!!..faham??..the problem with me is that,i always set a target of getting not only good result but also excellent grades no matter how hard the subject is..failure to be excellent is a failure..and that's not good..sigh~~

im off for now..pray for me..please!

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